thirty is 3 perfect 10's

I'm turning 30 in 30 days....and really...i'm freaking out, i'm terrified. mostly because things that i want are beyond my control and i'm frustrated and mad that i don't have them. and i think to myself that i'm a screw up. but i know, i know.......deep inside, i know. i'm not a screw up and everything i've done has been important, even my mistakes. so, i was sitting here thinking"how am i going to get through this next month?" i have my answer....i created a new blog!!! lol. on it i'm going to record something new and different that i have never done for each day. i need your ideas and suggestions of new things to do. so please comment back. and check out the blog.http://twelvetothirty.blogspot.com oh to explain the http. someone recently told me i act like i'm twelve. well, i'm also told that i look 24 and not almost 30. so i figure i average to eighteen. hehehehe. but that's the idea behind the twelve.