as a hatter. :)
no really.
i'm mad that i'm not married
no really.
i'm mad that i'm not married
i start to think i'm not worth it.
i'm mad that i've gained weight after i've worked so hard to lose it
i start to wonder what's the point.
i'm mad that i might not be able to go to church with my single friends
i start to question the truth of it all.
i'm mad that i lose my courage after all i've been through
i start to remember my blessings
i'm mad that my life isn't perfect
i start to rely more on His whose life is.
i'm mad that i feel so alone and distraught
i start to towards Christ who comforts me.
i'm mad that i rarely finish what i start
but i start again.
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I know you wrote this a little while ago, but I just saw it and wanted to say that one of the things that helped me the most while waiting to have Logan (2 years, which I know isn't much time at all but felt like eternity), was a talk given by Elder Spencer J. Condie- Claim the Exceeding Great and Precious Promises. That was a talk he gave in general conference in April 2008? Anyways, he was talking about Leah and Rachel and how Leah was able to bear all these children and Rachel none....then he said something that hit me so hard that can be applied to so many different trials and situations.
"The Apostle Peter testified that “the Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering” toward us (2 Peter 3:9). In this age of one-hour dry cleaning and one-minute fast-food franchises, it may at times seem to us as though a loving Heavenly Father has misplaced our precious promises or He has put them on hold or filed them under the wrong name. Such were the feelings of Rachel.
But with the passage of time, we encounter four of the most beautiful words in holy writ: “And God remembered Rachel” (Genesis 30:22). And she was blessed with the birth of Joseph and later the birth of Benjamin. There are millions on earth today who are descendants of Joseph who have embraced the Abrahamic promise that through their efforts “shall all the families of the earth be blessed, even with the blessings of the Gospel, which are the blessings of salvation, even of life eternal” (Abraham 2:11).
When heaven’s promises sometimes seem afar off, I pray that each of us will embrace these exceeding great and precious promises and never let go. And just as God remembered Rachel, God will remember you. I so testify in the name of Jesus Christ, amen."
I hope that helps. It's hard to be patient. It's hard to feel like you fail (but you aren't). It's hard to wonder if things are worth it. But, as someone who sees you from the outside- I think you look great. I think you are strong and beautiful. And for those who wait they receive bigger blessings. Having had waited for Logan made me appreciate things (and still does) in a way that I couldn't had I not had to be patient.
Good luck with school and all other things!
The article is actually in October of 2007. Watch the video- he says it best!
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